Don't Mess With Perfection

Friday, April 25, 2008

I thought I shld write about today, 25th April 2008, because many things happened.
I can't hide my feelings and I can't fake my smiles.

When I reached school in the morning, I asked yuan to pei me ask the western stall auntie to help me keep the toblerone chocs in her refrigerator. I was really excited about today's performance since the last weekend. Knowing that there was a free period at the start of the lesson, I happily asked elena to lend me some coloured papers to write notes to my dear dancemates. I wrote the word '舞' on the 19 pieces of paper and as a perfectionist, I decided to discard around 8 of them because the word I wrote was not really nice. And so, I borrowed the coloured paper from elena again and cut out some more papers in replacement to the ones I had decided to throw away. After that, I started writing messages on the papers and then I put all of them in my pencil case, thinking of a suitable time to give all sec4 female performers(including jiayu).

After school, 23 dancers met at the dance notice board, all ready to go for pizzahut:D
While we were on our way, stephanie, daphne, wenxuan, deborah, yangyang and I discussed about the guys and we all hope that solo will not be solo anymore. At first, we worried alot because he was walking alone then walk walk walk... just before we crossed the road, we saw nicholas and solo putting their hands on each other's shoulders. I even took photo of it and we were really glad to see this scene. At the pizzahut, I noticed that our seating arrangement was not good enough and so,we asked the guys to swop places with us so that the nine of them can sit together, to have more and better interactions. after lunch, we went to big bookshop to buy lihuan a get well soon card.

Back to school and we bathed, as though we are participating in a camp. LOL.
We started preparing the tapes when we were in dance studio. We put on make up, danced and took photographs. It was 7.40pm when all of us were outside the hall. We were worried that stephanie would not have the time to do put on cosmetics. While waiting for her, I hugged my loving girls and I shook hands with the guys. I made a wish to the only star I saw. I could not remember what I wished exactly, but I know it's about our safety, our smiles and of course, our performance. Hugged stephanie when she was done with the makeups and all.
We went to the backstage and waited. I prayed that nothing like what happened during our rehearsal would happen again. I thought that they would remember to start the music loud enough so that we know when to start exactly. Soon, we heard the harp ensemble performing and I prayed once again. After two songs, we entered the stage. We could hardly hear the start of our music and we started 1X8 beats later. I knew that something was wrong when I heard the transition of the music. And just like what peixuan said, I hoped we can start the dance all over again. However, we continued dancing and I am sure many of us skipped a few steps or fastforward the steps, if you had notice. Hazes of fear surrounded me but I still tried my best to put on a wide smile throughout the first part of the dance. Things were better at the second part of the dance. In my mind, I was telling myself, 'It's the last dance. SO GO ON!'

Back in the dance studio. I felt bad. My heart was aching and I was weak. I burst into tears helplessly. Ms Kee jihe~ed us and comforted us. She said alot of very sensible things but I just couldn't help it, but to cry and to wait for a miracle to happen( we persuaded Ms Kee to ask Mr Pandian to let us dance again, in the hall or the parade square and whether is there audience or not it does not matter). The miracle did not happen today but I still believe that it WILL happen someday. Daryl, joanna, kaiwen and xinyu talked to us with encouraging words. The desert and the lush green pastures etcetc. Thanks to their care and concern, seniors and Ms Kee, you people are really nice. I can understand what all of you had mentioned earlier and I will remember them. And alyssa is a strong girl. She reminded us that what laoshi always wanted us to be(not to be the best dancer, but to be happy when we are dancing). NONO to disappointments.

In the end I only gave out the chocs but not the little notes.

I felt guilty when I heard that some of the audience did not even notice that and we met up with some problems at the start of the dance. It hurts in the heart. It really does.

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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Ferny wished that she could haf an everlasting wide smile tmr! :D
And she doesn't want her jaws to feel numb=P
Mass lunch with performers!<3
pizzaaaaaaaaaaaaHUT! LOL
again.
WHEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Happy one year anniversary to nanhua mordern dance`08- Contradictions(:

and it's less than 48hours to our LAST dance (:
I will stay strong and healthy. yeah, 'cause I feel very weak, physically and mentally.
I'm not weak because of academic stress, I'm not easily affected/stressed by my studies, see I'm ever so optimistic about it:D
I feel(from long long time ago till now) as if I'm losing a beloved someone.

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Friday, April 18, 2008

406`o8 LOVES SINGING BIRTHDAY SONGS!
(especially during physics lessons=P)
It's a good method to kill a few mins of the lesson. wahaha xD

And today's sports' day!
deborah is a really sporty girl and she clinched the B' division girls' overall championship!
congrats!!
And dance did very well too(:
All thanks to: alyssa, deborah, daphine, rachel (for the girls' baton relay) & colin hoongjia nicholas and tse yu (for the boys' baton relay)!
And THANKS TO ALL who were there to cheer and to support them(:
I LOVE YOU DANCERS! :D

And I beg you, Mr Time, please do not pass so fast.

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

just blog to tell everyone that tomorrow's nhds cultural`07-睡不觉，怎么办?'s birthday! or shld i say it's anniversary? birthday shld be dec`06, the day it was choreographed=P hmm.. and the next wednesday is nhds modern`07-Contradiction's birthday!!

and I hope there's more time to do what I want, at least make it 100hours = a day(:

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Friday, April 04, 2008

In 21days' time,
we'll be onstage again, but this time, it would probably be the very last time.
I hope we would all put up an exceptionally excellent show(:

typing and typing,
I started to miss everything.
jihe & PTs;
sit-ups & push-ups;
playing & learning;
listening & dancing;
be it laughter or cries;
it's all because of PASSION that drives us on;
a day followed by another;
a night followed by another;
a week followed by another;
a year followed by another.

ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE! ILOVEDANCE!

For most of us, i think, this would be the very last dance we would be dancing.
I really love dancing, enjoyed every moment of it, be it tiring or not.
A senior once said that 'dance is music make visible' and
Ms Tan once said that '舞蹈本来就是个遗憾的艺术'.
Both are partially correct. hahas. at least, I think so.
Even if there's no music, a dance still has its rhythm and beat and
even if it's really a '遗憾的艺术', I doubt any dancers would be '遗憾' for dancing the dance.
rahrahrahhhhhhhhs.
NONO. I'm not emotional.

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